the dreaded cause of this life

my Blogging has been in recession for a few, but there seems to be a slight rise in activity there is an estimate for serious writing for the next few months.

The CAUSE?

are you ready?....

here it is......

the nasty 10 letter word.....

DEPLOYMENT

I will be deprived that tender touch in the middle of the day, a kiss in the morning that tells me everything will be okay today,that hand to hold when I get lonely. I will be sexually deprived- check out this blog from last year buying stock to get an idea of what its gonna be like.

In all seriousness I will be lonely for my husband and am in high hopes life here in Wa will get better then it is right now. the boys will be wondering where Daddy is - I can see it now

" mommy where daddy is?" " daddy wokrin?" " I wand DAAAAADDY!" *Smiles " Daddy!" (at the sight of a man who resembles my husband). it's going to be those times that my mind will wander in loneliness that will curdle those nights in darken moments.

we give up our family time,our husbands and wives, those memories we create during the years all for YOUR and MY freedom. I am proud of my husband for serving this country and having such a drive to want to do those things many would never imagine of doing.

I LOVE YOU BABE AND WILL MISS YOU MORE THEN YOU KNOW

His Affair

It's a fantasy, a de-stresser, it's his favorite thing to do on a Friday night (and every other night, too)! No, it's not sex, it's Star Wars, the video game, and like a real affair, it's highly addictive. He figures out ways to manipulate his character, he spends hours dissecting what strategy he should apply next to get to know him better and when he’s there, he barely pays attention to me. We used to go out and grab dinner on a Friday or Saturday night. Now? He's got a date ... with Star wars.
It gets worse: When I threw out my back, my husband reminded me I had to be on "bed rest", meaning in the bedroom, not on the couch: "you should lay down and rest in the bed," he said earnestly. "Oh okay, if I lay on the couch for two days, it's really the same as being in the bed." "No," he said, "you have to be in bed." Then I figured it out ... he wanted the living room so he could sneak in a little video game time. Those few days you would have thought a war zone had hit the house- it was a MESS!
The other day, I reached the end of my rope. I came home I think the dr appt, he was in deep concentration mode -- I mean, you would have thought he was playing in the US Open Star wars championship or something. "Hi, honey!" I said, and walked over to give him a kiss. "Ugh….I thought the neighbor was going to wake Jack up." That was it. What, was he worried the “kid” was going to bug him? I thought of some things I could do, like cut the cord, put a virus on the computer, break the keys on the computer, but then he would just run to the store and buy another one. I'm hoping, like most affairs, this one will eventually fizzle. But that better hurry, because I'm starting to find some hobbies of my own. While they'll never replace him, I might just give him a taste of his own medicine and be gone playing with my new hobby ......